Regardless of mental health. Also.

I understand your going through lot of hard time. Missing parental figure at very young age and other parent instead of being supportive is  critical can cause lot of childhood trauma . Having constant parents/ primary care takers is very important for childs overall development... Trusting , accepting, Reassuring, supporting ,caring through their hardships, doubts, fears, failures, anxities,worries ....is important in shaping ones personality. unconditional Love are important in forming child's self esteem, confidence ., Believing oneself Unexpressed emotions or unresolved conflicts are most common cause of depressions or anxities people go through. Therapy can help understand whats causing you stress n what's important to you than feeling depressed , inferior, or suicidal and work on those things.

can consult me .... after complete assessment can suggest medications or therapy or both accordingly

It's important to visit a Psychiatrist as early as possible because of suicidal thoughts. Its  important for you to express those thoughts when ever you have to someone close or a Psychiatrist .

U r in severe depression.

Consult Psychiatrist and get treated u will be fine