Online prescription. The courage to do.

I'm scared of going to the physician for my mental illness because it was a traumatizing experience when I was taken to one by my parents for when I was in school. I was given medications without being told what they were for and the physician whom I saw was judging me very badly because of my personal preferences. Now I've been saving to see a physician but I get very scared when I book an appointment so I've not seen one in years. I get nervous while speaking to someone face to face so I don't want to talk to a physician but I really want to take treatment as I know it'll help me live a better life. I'd like to know if practo physicians prescribe something if I consult with them. Or if I need to see a doctor at their office to get a prescription which I know will take years for me to gather the courage to do.