No one believes I am normal. Any pill.

I suffered collar fracture in a bike accident in the year 2007 and was not comfortable with surgery did to me. Added to that, My family created so many problems. With endless pain and suffering, I didn't sleep for three days. I don't want to question the integrity of family members, they prolonged my sleeplessness by adding 3 more days ( Total 6 days - Cannot promise). They took me to Rtd Psychiatry professor, who recommended a medicine of value 400 mg. he didn't reduce it for 10 years. I took the medicine without a break, hoping that one day he will stop medicine. Found he never had intention to stop the medicine. I am 37 years old, Got married in Sep 2016. I believed, My family will never understand my real problem. I did some research on medicine I took for 10 years in internet, and read some disturbing side effects which i believe is true. Like artificial diabetes, Suicidal thoughts etc. I stopped the medicine. Now, My Diabetes is under control without any pill.