My problem is me. Married another gir!

Small age on wards i do't have any friends. no one want me as a friend. so small age on wards i am lonely girl in that time i was sexually harassed by a lady. but i do't know in that small age. but later on wards i think i am in 8th , i like to be with boys why because any girl was not even treated as a friend. so this was day to day increased i am more addicted to spend time with boys. after inter i have a boyfriend we both are happy. in this time in my hostel my room mate have one friend who is working as doctor so she introduced me as room mate. so day to day we are friends one day he invited for party so i went but i was raped after that i asked him to marry me but he leaves me. later i was so upset nd i even i do't know to whom i need to share. later i went for studies there again i am in love again he cheated me. this time i directly put a proposal in front of my family but he did't came to my home to discuss this matter after that mobile off got married another gir