Messed up childhood memories. Crying.

Hello dear, I can understand the pain and angst that you carry about your childhood. However if the past continues to haunt your present, then we must do something to get out of this turmoil. I will strongly suggest and recommend that you seek a consultation with a psychiatrist or a clinical psychologist near you for comprehensive assessment and management of these symptoms. A psychological intervention like psychotherapy would be definitely beneficial for your condition, and need for medication can be decided after a consultation. However please be well assured that your condition can be helped with medication and psychological intervention... Hope this helps you. Best wishes for your health and future...