I've been thinking on how to end my life

Hello dear, life is a journey, it's a process where one learn and grows... There are definitely times in everyone's life when they feel they are at a stage from where no escape is possible. Howsoever, do know that life is neither completely black not completely white, there are multiple shades of grey.  If we are facing difficulties in some spheres of life, we will still be doing well in others. As you have mentioned that you have started feeling like this only recently, it implies that most probably there have been events /stressors which have initiated and aggravated these thoughts and emotions. I would suggest strongly that you seek help from a psychologist or pschotherapist for counseling and learning skills to manage your difficulties better.

also, take care of yourself by engaging in regular walks, some socializing, healthy sleeping and eating habits. hope this helps, good luck!

try not to seclude yourself, seek support from loved ones and engage yourself in pleasurable activities.