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I eloped and got married to a person whom I loved for four years... After marriage his cousin brother used to come and abuse me physically. My husband's family doesn't want me.... Even though his brother abused me I kept telling my husband about his behaviour... But he never trusted me instead he hit many Times.. now we moved to a different place I.e near my parents place.. im not able to see my husband in a good way... I'm not able to concentrate on anything... I commited suicide twice... I don't want to live sir ... I don't trust him anymore.. I'm getting scared to go out with him.. especially to meet his family members... I want him but he keeps saying sometimes that he doesn't love me anymore... He just wants to leave me... I can't go and tell my parents... I don't want to live anymore...