I feel so lost, angry, low and tired.

I dont feel motivated to do anything. I feel extremely angry and depressed all the time. I haveve no clue how to explain. Im confused about my sexuality, I'm confused about what i want to do in life. I don't feel like working at all. My past scares me, I'm always scared and dependent. I feel fatigue and restless. I feel like I don't belong here. Its killing me. I have no clue who I am anymore. Even the basic things like dressing up well or even writing a few words is a big task. I feel so lonley. It's been almost 2 years now I've been like this. It's driving me crazy. I don't like people. I don't like anything. I have no friends I trust nobody. My body is always exhausted and needy of rest or care. Which I barely get. There is a lot more I need your help