High anxiety. Extreme social anxiety.

I have been socially anxious for most of my life. In 2017, I also began indulging in self-harm and frequent suicidal thoughts. Later I was prescribed setraline, with which I had bad heart palpation it was changed to a med to escitalipram. I was on it for 2 months. Later I continued to harm so it was changed to some anti-psychotic which made me really sleepy. I stopped taking it and continued with escitalipram for another 2 months after which I stopped that as well. In mid 2018 i finished college and came to bangalore for job. I immediately went to NIMHANS and was prescribed a different anti depression medicine. I was on it for 2 months, I also started therapy there. I conunied to self harm, very rarely and so I was again prescribed some anti-psychotic. I couldn't take and I asked to change it. Then it was another anti-psychotic medicine and then I stopped going to nimhans. This was end of 2018. I haven't self harmed in 2019. But i still suffer from extreme social anxiety.