Head digging. Whenever i close my eyes.

I understand your situation. Irritability may be due to a wide range of problems including depression or even having an impulsive personality as well. However it is unclear about the horror incident which you have mentioned. More clarity is needed regarding your actual problem. Information regarding your hunger, energy levels and concentration at whatever you do would also be more helpful to decide on the severity of your condition. It appears manageable with appropriate treatment. Some therapy sessions and if needed medical help might be useful for you. I would also be more than happy to help you with that if you are looking for online assistance. Discussions will be held confidential. You can directly consult with me through Practo as needed. Online chat consultation is available.