Fear in mind. Then. it happens mostly.

I suffered from COVID in Jun 2020 and my father passed away few days back in the same month. I fear from going outside, meeting people even in my home, sometimes I wash my hands many times even if I am at home. I avoid everything I can, but when I see people are carefree around me, I feel nervous. I hardly allow anyone in my room. Sometimes, I feel someone is shaking my chair, though I realise it is a myth (I don't allow anyone to sit on it), my eyes starts paining. Things star to turn dim in front of me. I suddenly start analysing my breathe, heart beat, touching my head and neck, taking temperature and oxygen level. I take multivitamins, everything I can do. Things go normal for sometimes, but the process repeats. I think 100 times for going out anywhere, even meeting my relatives and my friends. Today an agent came at my home, I was maintaing a distance, but he was continuosly coming closer to me for documents and all. I cannot focus on my work then. It happens mostly.