Greetings. I am sorry to hear about your condition and I empathize with you. I believe stress has overwhelmed you so much so that it has started affecting your personal and professional domains of life. So, before stress snowballs into something worse like depression and anxiety/panic , you need to seek professional help. So this condition is very much treatable , all you need to do is to get yourself evaluated by a Psychiatrist and get started on medication and therapy.

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