I lost my dad recently. My mom is also sick and worrying so much on what had happened. Im Working away from family nd missing my dad a lot. Feeling like no is there for me to stand beside me. Getting badly treated in a relationship. My Marriage has been planned with him on dec. I don't want that to happen. Scared to disclose this to my family to not make mom more worried abt my future since I was the one who wanted to get married with him previously. Feeling suicide is the only option i have. Cannot sleep in nights. Want painless death.