Hello, I see you are going through a rough time. Relationships can be a big part of our life, and having a sudden breakup can create chaos and confusion. Loving someone so deeply and leaving the same person can be aching and unpleasant. This is all the more reason that you should prioritise your own self-care and mental health.
Recovering from such an experience can be difficult, but it is all worth it. I understand healing and concentrating on things will take some time, but drawing wisdom from what happened will make you strong and allow you to know who you are. Looking for answers all on your own may be difficult and frustrating, but know that you can always take some support from a professional to help you process these big feelings.
Next Steps
I would recommend that you seek therapy. In reaching out to a psychologist, you may be able to get some support to get through these difficult times. It sounds like you've been dealing with quite a bit. It can be hurtful and frustrating to be carrying around all these negative feelings and thoughts. This is perhaps a sign that you need some support carrying all this emotional weight.
Health Tips
For the moment, in times when things are difficult, engage yourself in some activities of Self-care and Self-compassion. You may also try Journaling - Write it all as if youâre talking to a stranger. It will help you to release your troubling thoughts and intense emotions effectively. You could also do some grounding exercises such as the 5-4-3-2-1 and counted breathing.