Thank you for sharing so openlyâwhat you're going through is deeply painful, and it's understandable that you're feeling disoriented, rejected, and emotionally exhausted. Youâve made some big life changes recently, and it's completely natural to feel lost when something that once gave you comfortâlike love and connectionâsuddenly becomes a source of hurt. It sounds like you're experiencing a mix of grief, emotional withdrawal, self-doubt, and confusion about your identity and needs. When a connection feels deeply meaningful and then fadesâespecially with someone emotionally avoidantâit can feel like you're chasing closure that never comes. Youâre also confronting an important truth: maybe you were relying on the relationship to regulate your happiness, which is something many people do without realizing.
Next Steps
Acknowledge the emotional residue: What you're feelingârejection, sadness, anxiety, and confusionâis real. Avoid labeling it as weakness. Let yourself grieve what couldâve been, not just what was. Shift your focus inward: Journaling or therapy can help you ask, âWhat was I hoping to receive from her emotionally that I now need to give myself?â Identify what kind of emotional intimacy you want and deserveâso you donât settle for emotional unavailability again. Reconnect with yourself: When you say, âI donât know how to be happy,â it shows that your self-identity got tied to someone elseâs behavior. This is a chance to rebuild happiness from within, through small, meaningful routinesâmovement, reading, solo travel, art, or reflection. Process the breakup with clarity: Avoid romanticizing the past. She wasnât ready for emotional depth, and thatâs not your fault. You didnât failâyou outgrew a relationship that couldnât match your emotional bandwidth.
Health Tips
Grounding practices for overthinking: Try 5-4-3-2-1 technique (naming 5 things you see, 4 you feel, etc.) when spiraling. Limit social comparison: Especially around love or stability. Your journey is unfolding at its own pace. Daily anchor: Pick one self-loving habit each day (like journaling for 5 minutes or mindful walks) to reconnect with peace. If the thoughts or sadness become overwhelming, a therapist at Soul Savera or a trusted professional can offer you a space to untangle this emotionally with guidance and clarity.