Hey
I see that you’re experiencing a lot problems which might have increased in severity at present. The issues that you’re having are majorly related to your psychological health leading to disturbances in your emotions and experiencing irritation and frustration from the things in your day to day life.
It seems like you have had a tough childhood and adolescent years and the memories are troubling you at present.
Next Steps
With respect to each and everything that you have stated, it seems like psychotherapy aimed at alleviating psychological distress such as dialectical behaviour therapy and cognitive behaviour therapy could help you a lot.
I would suggest you to consult an RCI licensed Clinical Psychologist at present. The sooner we begin, the sooner will be progress.