Hi there, I have just read ur query. And I must say its not easy to handle all this for any human being irrespective of color language or our profession. This is not easy to accept that a problem exists howsoever temporary it may b in reality. You being a psychologist in making know the importance of thoughts in affecting our behaviour and emotions. What u r going through is the result of negative cognition and mafunctional assumptions . Biologically speaking u r running low on a neurohormone called serotonin which influences our affect and controls thinking . Basically u will need such medicines which enhance ur sertonin levels so as to control ur problem. A psychiatrist who commands ur faith will b able to help u in this. Besides some sessions of psychotherapy is only gonna help u learn more about ur self and psychology as well. hope this helps u but still feel free to raise further queries. Thank u...