It has been 6 months after my ex girlfriend left me for our toxic relationship.I must mention here I was the toxic person who always used to blame her,scold her,fights with her over silly things.It was me who couldn't see the breakup was coming, although I always thought she is never gonna leave me.Whatever,the thing is that I am used to the new normal mode of life now,I am habituated to the pain,but suddenly I am feeling that the pain has increased more like 10x after 6 months, don't know why.I am just wanting to escape from everywhere, disappear from all of my circles,my friends, I want that she never see me anywhere,she never hears my name,she never sees my account,my picture on social media,I just want to go to darkness, from where nobody can see me,nobody can save me.I also don't want to see any other girl, don't want to talk to any other girl,I just want that everybody leaves me,nobody cares for me.I want to sleep whole day.Why?all of these?why??