12xxxxxxx8558. 4-5 or more people.

I am very sensitive to how people perceive me . whenever I talk to someone except my mother I an very cautious of what to say in fact i m a bit scared to be honest if it's between 4-5 or more people. The problem is whenever I reply something foolish which I do mostly. .. I after the incident become depressed with only that sentence of mine. I regret , feel guilty, always go through self shaming cry. I don't know what to say or talk about to people with whom I don't talk on a regular basis. My mother is the person with whom I share every thing . please suggest me how should I face these situations. Why am I so awkward. It's happening since 4-5 yrs .I shouldn't be so self cautious. One more thing I would like to add of someone says something negative about me then it becomes very difficult to overcome that ( for weeks) i am not able to reply anything , stand for myself at least. It makes me very sad :'( how can I help myself and have self confidence .