What to do. Call me for clarifications!

My supervisor told me that she was gonna call me for clarifications regarding my work. I got a little bit of anxious thinking that i might got mistakes again. My friend asked me to see him but i don't have the energy to get out of the house and thinking that it will be unfair for my ldr boyfriend to see him and i can't go to my boyfriend. I thought that he will be upset if i will see my friend. I watched 13 reasons why, after that i felt that i don't know what to do with my life anymore. What is the essence of tomorrow, even though i need to go to work tomorrow. It feels like it is safe to end your life while everything seems okay rather than to make mistakes in the future or mess up. I wanted to cry my heart out but i don't know. My heart hurts. And i am just in the bed most of the day today. It feels like that since i can't figure what i want in my life. It felt like i might not figure it out.