Residual depression symptoms. Please!

I'm suffering from last 2 years from residual symptoms of depression and MDD stareted 4 years back. I have tried almost every medicine but not anyone of them is making me 100% better. Now the symptoms are , I used to have dream of becoming IES or IAS and I was very good in studies and there was a way of studying which made me outshine others. Now when I try to study keeping in mind about my Aim I had before depression, my body starts sweating and when I study without any aim I can just remember what is written but there is no interset. Second symptom is my sex drive is very low. Is it possible to get out of this. I'm taking nexito and supeagya(which made me 80% better) I'm suffering immensly. I don't want to die. Help me. Give a detail answer please