PREMATURE EJACULATION. Healthy men?

I addicated to mastribution since when i was 14yrs old. Frequency is 2 - 3 times per week. Im suffrer from PE since a long time i mean many years bt hesitate to tell anyone. I dont know what is intercourse so i know only that this is called sex n plasure so dont aware abt it in past and early stages. Cant able to hold more than 1.2 min. I did a lot of practice of start stop squeeze technique Breathing techniques. I hate my body bcuz of my bad habbit of mastribution. i quit mastribution now bt always think after 1 2 week that hope if i can able to get control bt i cant ... everytime every technique fail.. n feeling wrost. Will i be able to enjoy sex life like normal healthy men? I dont want to take those antidepressants pill n sparys.