Porn affected my life. Mind happiness.

Please help iam in depressing suicide stage .Please help i was addicted to porn it was 4 day since I watched porn.i can't erase thoughts that come in mind .I keep on over thinking about the porn problem but It ruined my life as i tried to avoid it it entirely rushes to my mind and i get mood outs i dont know how to stop it please help i lost my peace of mind my mind was not stable .I love my mother so much but I ruined our relationship i am began to doubt my mom as she speaks to lot of friends please help iam sick of it i need peace of mind .Iam unable to pursue my dream concentrate on my work and other daily stuffs .I don't find happiness in any thing.i lost my faithfulness in God and my mom i feel lonely and depressed iam feeling ashamed of myself please help to prevent one suicide .I need stable mind please help .Iam losing track of my life please help give some tips to improve my mind happiness .