Mentally ill and facing many problems.

Below poverty financial issues. Bad breakup. People these days disgust me. Had dreams to become something which seems like is just out of reach like I'm not made for it. Shattered by heart. Want to just quit things. Why are people made to do things by saying that SURVIVAL is key to success. Survival in some ways leads to depression. Depression is the worst one can ever face. Worst than cancer. You suffer every nanosecond. Over thinking. Districting your ownself. Kills you internally. Mentally lost. I feel like I m not hungry for days no sleep no social life. Just lying there waiting for nothing. Away and lost. Not in a dream world but a lost tour. Would have obviously visited someone by as I told basic necessities is also hard to buy than there is no point in spending for a psychiatrist. Still somewhere feel that one person can help me mentally and emotionally. Why can't their be just happy souls around and depression is just a thing no one can afford. It can ruin your health mentally.