Heavy uncontrollable anxiety. Kolkata.

When I wake up in morning and go to wash room and take shower after that I am fighting battle daily from my urge of urination and urge of clearing my belly . My heart beat goes and feels like very anxious , uncozyness, and my left thigh mildly pains . It happens whenever I think I try to step out of my home for like office , meeting or anything . I have to wear diaper daily and this fight continues like hell on daily basis . Diaper gives me confidence to do my day to day job but without diaper the urge is so high that It feels like I will faint if don't go to washroom . In short i feel like I am losing control of my body . I am a businessman and now in fear I can't even gather confidence to go to doctor because the moment I think I step out of home I feel like clearing my belly . It's like what should I do . I am looking for a doctor who can visit me at home . I live in kolkata .