Feeling lonely in depression. Alive.

Hello, These sound to be very challenging circumstances to be in. Profound sadness and grieving is a natural response to loss. Everyone has their own way to deal with such a situation and that’s why there is no right or wrong involved. To share all of your life with your loved one and suddenly losing the person brings impactful emotional suffering. This can be overwhelming and might also bring a lot of unexpected emotions from shock to despair to disbelief to guilt to feeling lonely and alone. Coping from the loss of your loved one is extremely difficult but equally important. This can also affect your married life. Active communication and conflict resolving mindset can help solve the fights and bring awareness to the relationship. I hear you and understand that processing and handling all this at such a point in time can be weighing down and disturbing but it is rational and expected and it’s alright for you to feel this way. Give yourself some time, self-love, and care and you will reach a relaxing and soothing space, soon. Just remember that you are not alone!

I would recommend you to reach out to a therapist. Therapy will help you to cope up better with your loss and be more mindful of the difficulties in your relationship. Also, A therapist can help you with acknowledging and working out such intense emotions in a better way.

For the moment, in times when things are difficult, you can try to do some grounding exercises such as the 5-4-3-2-1 or counted breathing.