Depression or anxiety i coudn't realised

I'm arya from tvm. I have no idea why i am feeling like this way. I'm obsessed with movies soo much because is the only way i find to heal my pain inside me. I have a small friends circle. But i never tried to share my feelings or thoughts with them. Because i knew they never understood my feelings or pain the way i feel. And i don't want tell to them. I have one person that i wish to hear me. But he also don't care about me or may be my feelings are a joke for him. And i cried to him soo many times without any reason only for his love and attention. I know something is happening inside me. To cure the pain i watched movies,web series. I love romantic movies . In the movie, any sad scenes i feel the same way i'm. sometimes i want to cry realy loud. But i can't...there is no tears but the pain inside me is really hard am not comfortable with anyone around me. Please help me doctor