Depression. For fresh medical help?

Hi. My early age sexual misbehavior exposure resulted in severely banging my head against the walls during early spring of youth, during +2 days, to stop excessive fantasy. I also had the mental images flashing inside that I was trampling on my loving family members and friends heads. Very serious issue. I was in the due course shown to 4 psychiatrists, who set me right. I was subject to a turncoat marital proposal which then reduced my feet to stones. I was unconscious at a hospital in Karimnagar for a week in 2011. I had several breaks in my academic and professional careers. Now I'm over with medication. Did a lot of yogic and self-healing exercise. I constantly keep a journal to look at my thinking evolution. I'm now looking for a stable new job. I have constant issues with the bad guys and the bad guys alone in the society. Serious issues. Some socially upper hands keep threatening me with remote sensing and following me. Any suggestions for fresh medical help ? Thanks :)