Hi.... It seems you are more afraid of loosing this job than the work pressure or work load you are bearing right now. Your financial condition is also contributing to your existing stress and anxiety. Work culture of this company is beyond your control, so you cannot expect it to change so that you feel better adjusted. It will be best for you to start looking for better opportunities outside and keep doing your work at your own pace. Employer or boss can put n number of tasks but you can choose to do them based on your existing work. Ask them which task is on priority and do it for them. As an employee you are expected to give your 100%. If the issue is with management of work then your managers will get the brunt. Also, please avoid seeing your office dynamics too personally. They all are just trying to make their own position better and nothing else. This is a hard time for small and medium businesses. Lot of companies are just struggling to survive in this economic downturn.
Next Steps
Consult a Psychologist.
CBT along with Interpersonal Guidance and Counselling is required.
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Mr. Gunjan Maithil
Senior Psychologist
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