What you're feeling is deeply valid, and itâs more common than you think. Even when a relationship is painful, the emotional attachment, shared memories, and hopes you had for it don't just disappear overnight. Letâs break it down gently:
What You Might Be Feeling:
Confused: âIf I wasnât truly happy, why do I still miss her?â
Guilty or regretful: For the patterns of fights, unmet desires, or the way things ended.
Attached: Not just to herâbut to the version of love or connection you hoped would evolve.
Empty or unsettled: Because a part of your identity or routine was built around this bond.
Next Steps
Emotional investment: You gave your time, feelings, and vulnerability. Letting go feels like losing a part of yourself. Cycle of hope & disappointment: The repeated breakupâpatch-up gave your brain little closures. It became a loop. Unmet needs: Your emotional and physical needs werenât fulfilled, which added confusionâyour body craved closeness, but emotionally things felt off. Fantasy of change: Somewhere, you hoped it would eventually work outâespecially when she said "in future, yes".
Health Tips
Accept that both of you were not emotionally compatibleâyou wanted connection one way, she had a different comfort zone. Grieve what you hoped for, not just what ended. Itâs okay to mourn a version of love that didnât survive. Notice the patterns (like impulsive breakups over unmet desires)âit helps you grow emotionally for future relationships. Shift the focus from âwhy canât I move on?â to âwhat did I truly need, and how can I give it to myself now?â If this still feels heavy, speaking to a therapistâlike someone from Soul Saveraâs teamâcan help you sort these thoughts in a safe space. Healing isnât about forgetting her; itâs about understanding yourself through what this relationship taught you.