Since when are you drinking? A lot can be explained if the duration and frequency of your drinking is known. You must have already read all about alcoholism and how it affects the brain cells? Rather you gradually lose different brain cell connections. These are signs of inherent anxiety and initial signs of depression.

It's anxiety making u find solace in drinking. We need to work on that I believe you should discuss your concerns in detail with a mental health professional to gain an insight about nature of problem and ways to overcome it through psychotheraputic techniques Consult with me or any psychologist for therapy and counseling Connect with me through practo Follow my Facebook page "juhi parashar -psychotherapist " for mental health issues All the best Seek help for early recovery

Alcohol does make anyone feel good and happy, when one becomes dependent on it. But in the longer run also impacts the way the brain helps you to cope with life and stressors. Therefore when sober you cannot feel the control you typically should have in life. Anxiety thoughts, sleeplessness, and persistent worry and fears engulf you when sober. Your brain loses its capacity to think logically and behave rationally in the longer run.

For a detailed understanding and clarity about yourself, I suggest you to consult a psychologist in your city personally.