Hello dear, I can understand how you must be feeling with all these negative thoughts in your mind. And I do sincerely believe that your condition can be helped after a comprehensive assessment. A combination of medication and psychological intervention may be well suited to your condition. However what worries me most are the ideas of self harm or suicide, it is good that you have been able to set aside these ideas with thoughts of love for your family. However please do not hesitate or delay in seeking help. I would strongly recommend and urge you to seek a consultation with a psychiatrist near you for a thorough evaluation and subsequent management. Do not lose hope, your condition can be helped. Hope this helps you. Best wishes for your health and future...

Yes, definitely.. Do come and meet a psychologist for a better understanding about yourself... It's a passing phase.. No worry. You will get back your zeal and energy back.