Hi, I can hear how exhausting and overwhelming this has been for you, especially after trying multiple things for so long. It makes sense that a ‘part of you’ is feeling hopeless and wondering if things will ever change.
I use Internal Family Systems (IFS) approach, & OCD is not something “wrong” with you—it’s often a set of protective parts that are trying very hard to keep you safe, even though the way they do it feels distressing and out of control. When these parts become extreme, it can feel like they are “taking over” you.
If you have noticed the more you try to fight these urges the more they get strong! The goal is not to fight or eliminate these parts, but to understand and relate to them differently. As this relationship changes, their intensity can reduce significantly. Many people do experience OCD becoming much more manageable, and at times even very quiet—but the focus is on building a different internal system rather than forcing it to become “zero.”
If therapy hasn’t helped so far, it may be about finding the right approach or fit, not that change is impossible.
Next Steps
- Consider working with a therapist trained in OCD-specific approaches (like ERP) or IFS-informed therapy
- Focus on understanding your patterns rather than fighting them
- Go step by step—change in OCD is gradual but very possible
Health Tips
The part of you that says “this will never get better” is also a part—not the whole truth. When you begin to separate from it, even slightly, new possibilities can open up. If this resonates with you… you may explore taking sessions with me. I have worked with OCD issues and found functional changes in my clients.