Wellness Greetings to you
This is completely a Reflection of your Stress and Suppressed Fear of uncertainty since a long time. One can never know , their mental blocks unless it is being expressed as such thoughts which will seek your attention. Nothing to worry , if this is addressed with proper guidance. Just talk to a professional.
Next Steps
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