Hi, If company of people is affecting you, stop meeting them & search for new ones. We need to understand deeply what is affecting you, making you weak. & accordingly therapeutic interventions will be given which will allow you to take control of your self & life. God will come to you, when you show yourself working up[on it. Thank You & take care

Change the people around you first.... Later seek counseling sessions to change your self.

You need psychiatrist consult asap

Hi, you can seek professional help to learn how to improve your interpersonal skills.

Hello! Kindly visit your nearest psychologist or psychiatrist immediately. There are professionals to help you deal with mental issues, you may tell them about the people around you-they'll help you deal with them too. Unfortunately, God cannot help you unless you take a few steps towards helping yourself.

Don't worry dear Detail history not there about the n kidney problem . You just focus on your natural  diet ,exercise Take daily Sun bath for 15 minutes in the morning or evening.surround urself with possitivity consult psychologist /psychiatrist.u take some steps world will come for your rescue for sure .