Hello . All that you have mentioned is not a problem . It is the resultant of the problem. The actual problem is stress and lack of optimum defense mechanism . You are not able to to handle your pressure ,'ale decisions and perform ., this you are going through a lot of emotional mess .
Next Steps
You need to regroup by speaking out the things that affect you and plan you thoughts and emotions .
Health Tips
Meet a psychologist nearby and take help in managing this situation wink help seems to have passed off your capacities . You can take online sessions if visiting a psychologist becomes a problem .
Don't worry . All will be ok : just take that first step to resolve the confusions by meeting a psychologist or speaking with one and discussing the real life issues that are affecting you