Hello, Your description here is suggestive of Obsessive Compulsive disorder. However caution must be exercised with an diagnosis made with a brief information, and without patient interview. Hence to make a confirmatory diagnosis, and to plan a proper management plan, please seek an appointment with a psychiatrist near you. A face to face interview and assessment is definitely required in the aforementioned scenario. However please be well assured that your condition can be helped with proper guidance and treatment. Hope this helps you. Best wishes for your health and future.