Hi mam
Good afternoon
I can understand your concern regarding your problems
Based on your symptoms...it appears that ur suffering with stress related disorder like obsessive compulsive disorder or generalized anxiety disorder.
But...to confirm ur diagnosis...detailed clinical assessment by a psychiatrist is required
Next Steps
please consult a psychiatrist as early as possible
Health Tips
as it's a stress related disorder....try stress handling techniques like
1.regular physical activity like walking or yoga
2.keep ur body and soul preoccupied with some activity
3.follow sleep hygine
3.consult a psychiatrist immediately for promt diagnosis and treatment