Hi friend your English is too difficult for one to understand but itseems you are suffering from constant negligence & low confidence with your family members . This sense of insecurity in you & unwanted feeling has led to attention seeking behaviour every where. You need to confirm by a Speech therapist & Audiologist to confirm your hearing & speech difficulties.
Next Steps
Consult an experienced Psychologist & book tele counselling sessions to organise your thought processes and gain confidence over yourself .
Health Tips
Believe in yourself and be patient to learn to accept your mistakes and correct them by experts.