Hello Friend, Good that you are seeking a help here. I can understand your suitation. Negativity, emotions weakness, indecisive are symptoms of Anxiety. You may be going through some job related stress or over thinking about future or relationship issues .
Sometimes bodily conditions due to food, daily routines, improper lifestyle, environment can also cause such mental imbalance. Any way, the solution needs to be first figuring out the real reason for your anxiety and start working on the recovery plan . As I do come from IT field, can easily understand where could be your problem.
No worries, it's just like any other physical illness and can be addressed through counseling support and few lifestyle changes or self therapies..
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