Hello Friend, Good that you are seeking a help here. Relationships with such contrast behaviors need a second thought. Don't try to park your happiness on such individuals or relationships where you are not enjoying anything and in fact it's affecting your mental stability. Relationships break up will take time to accept and adjust with reality. You may think that it's easier said than done, but surely this is possible if you  take a professional help. Pls openly discuss your problem with a psychology counselor to ventilate your emotions, feelings and concerns. Such discussions will help you to get a different perspective about yourself and about your problems with a suitable solution.

Hi Give some importance to yourself. A detailed discussion can help me understand his side better. From what you wrote it seems you are being disrespected Consult with me or any psychologist for therapy and counseling All the best Seek help don't suffer

Consult a Psychiatrist for a detailed assessment. There is risk of depression in your current situation.

There is a way out. Try to consult a psychologist for a better clarity and understanding about yourself.

Problem his in you. Ur good listener . From now start think about urself . your the director of Ur life so start directing what exactly you want in your life this will help come out this issue .still your not able to come out contact psychologist or psychiatrist