Since i was 18 i always had these change of moods, i was either very happy or very sad or very angry since 18 till now (21) i get these hallucinations of ways to kill myself or ways of my death and i use to just close my eyes and think about it. At 18 i took an overdose and ended up in hospital when my mother found the tablets. I lied because i was scared and said i just over took more as i had a 'severe headache'. Now i lash out and minutes later i know this isnt me. its getting worse.