Hello dear, The description provided by you here is very brief and it would not be prudent to jump to conclusions about your mental health. However what I would suggest would be for you to seek a consultation with a psychiatrist near you for comprehensive assessment and treatment. A detailed analysis will help in understanding your condition/situation in a more holistic manner... However please be well assured that an assessment and treatment should be able to help you. Hope this helps you. Best wishes for your health and future.