Hi mam
Good afternoon
U can understand ur concerns about ur problem
Based on the history provided by you above....it indicates that ur suffering from depressive episode (mostly).
It needs to be evaluated and treated immediately as it can still become severe
Next Steps
immediately consult psychiatrist for further management
Health Tips
life style modifications
following sleep hygiene
regular physical activity
always getting involved in some work
always think in a positive way
never expect anything from anyone
never compare urself with anyone
spend time with friends and family