Hi. From what you have mentioned, it seems that you have a strained relationship with your husband which is making your life difficult for you. With continuous stressful life events, we often feel very frustrated in life. For you, it would be of utmost importance that you and your husband sort out differences and work on your relationship. You should consult a psychiatrist or a psychologist for couples therapy. In addition, you should also undergo psychiatric evaluation to rule out depression. Accordingly, medications might be started.

Dear friend, Your words clearly show that you are stressed out. Please get professional help. Wishes