Hi. Having suicidal wishes is often suggestive of an internal struggle with self and a feeling of hopelessness. However, attempting suicide is not the right choice to deal with problems in life. I don't know if you are Facing any stressful situation in life or suffering from depression, you can with proper guidance face it. You ought to seek proper help for coming out of this. Immediately talk to your close family members or friends about these thoughts. Consult a Psychiatrist and talk openly about what you are going through. There are always alternative to the choices we have decided on.