Hey. It certainly sounds very distressing for you. All the hurt, pain and self doubt can make us spiral down into stronger forms of sadness. Please do seek help from a therapist. In a few sessions you'll surely be able to come out of the hurt and will be able to live your life using all the potentials you already have! All the best!

The above mentioned issue needs to be addressed. Please contact a mental health professional

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