I understand your concern. You seem to be suffering from post traumatic stress symptoms including disturbing dreams. However more clarity is needed regarding your problem to decide on the severity of your condition. It is easily manageable with appropriate treatment. Some counselling sessions and if needed medical help might be useful for you. I would also be more than happy to help you with that if you are looking for online assistance. Discussions will be held confidential. You can directly consult with me through Practo as needed. Online chat consultation is also available.