You seem to be going through a tough time. It's possible that some of your dreams didn't come true. Yet it's not the end of possibilities. More good things can happen in your life if you are patient and willing to do something about it. You seem to have lost hope and will power to persevere. Give yourself some more time. You are also going through a transition phase as you go from college to a larger world. Along with some losses, you would have gained something good too. What are these positive gains? Count your blessings and tell yourself that you are in a much better place than many people.
Next Steps
Since you are suicidal, please go to the nearest hospital and see a psychiatrist as this is an emergency situation. A counselling psychologist can guide you to feel hopeful and teach you how to be resilient in the face of adversity.
Health Tips
Life is always full of ups and downs. Stress is a part of our life but how we manage the stress will make or break us.