Thank you for sharing something so raw and deeply personal. I can feel how much pain you're carrying, and I want to say this first: your grief, guilt, and heartbreak are absolutely valid. You made an incredibly difficult decision—one that no loving pet parent ever wants to face. And the fact that you're hurting this much shows just how deeply you loved him.
What you did came from a place of responsibility and love—not cruelty. You chose to protect him, others around you, and yourself from a worsening situation. That is not something to feel ashamed of. That is something only someone with a big heart could do, even at a great emotional cost.
Being a perlt parent myself, I understand that losing a pet is devastating, especially when it happens this way. It's normal to feel guilt, confusion, and even question your decision, even if it was the right one under the circumstances. But you do not have to go through this alone.
Next Steps
If you are open to it, we can work on processing this grief, finding peace in your decision, and working through the overwhelming emotions you’re feeling right now. You don’t need to carry this pain alone or in silence. With the right support, healing is possible. Let’s walk through this together, one step at a time.